June
2, 2002
Good
morning Céline,
I am finishing
up the sound work with Wende today and will burn the CD's to send to
you via express post tomorrow. I am pleased with the work and realized
with a great clarity this morning in my writing meditations just how
much I have shifted from the person I was when I did the work on Iris
and how much of what form my work takes is resonant with the person
I am, what my capacity is and where (in retrospect), I have been and
might be going. When I first thought of the sound that I wanted for
the Kindest recording, I had assumed that I would use the model of the
Iris sound scape. As I have been working with the voices and stories
and the memories of my experiences in Rennes over the past days and
through my time also in Abitibi with the people I met and talked to
at the regional book fair, I realized how much I am now capable of and
interested in leaving space for each person to tell their story without
having to layer them one atop another and therefore (inadvertently and
with a great conviction at the time that I made the work, that it made
for a good sound piece), forcing them to compete to be heard. With Iris,
each person's voice was only distinct for ever so short bits, mainly
having set it up so that the voices and the stories merged into the
chorus of others' stories and voices. It is a very tender realization
that brings me back to the pain of where I was when I did the Iris piece
(in the attempts of acting as if I thought choice mattered and that
my own voice would be heard and listened to (even to and by myself).
With this kindest work and the way in which the sound is coming together
in sequential tellings, rather that overlapping super-impositions, I
am aware of a growth that has led me to doing this kindest intervention,
and that in the doing of it will lead me further along the path of opening
my heart and connecting with myself and others.
I
will send the material to the gallery address. Please send me a confirmation
email when the package arrives. I look forward to your comments and
only wish that you could have been a more direct participant in the
editing process which is in and of itself quite a challenge and very
full of emotion. I am encouraged by the humanity and vulnerability that
was shared with me in Rennes and hope that the work I am doing on the
sound will do justice and honor to the individuals who took part. I
hope too that the work will inspire others to meditate and make space
in their lives for deliberate gestures of kindness and compassion.
Take
good care and until soon,
With thanks and best wishes
Devora